I went to visit my husband tonight. It is a short drive. Not close but not far.

I even curled my hair, spritzed on his favorite perfume and away I went.

I got there early and signed in.

Approximately 1 minute later the guard says to me
“He’s on a transfer list. You can’t see him”

I took a very deep breath and asked where and when?

He said “We don’t give out any information”

So I turned from the counter and said over and over

“I will not cry before I get to the car. I will not cry before I get to the car”

As soon as I sat down in the car I burst into tears. I was thinking there is just so much sadness with all this.

I’m sad, my husband is sad, our child is sad.

I think it may not make much sense, if you get to see your husband on a regular basis, but I just wanted to touch him. To get a hug.

I cried all the way home. Then went to the Christian bookstore and found a book called “On Broken Legs” about the sufferings of a woman. I will let you know if it’s a good read.

I was looking at a lot of the books on suffering and wasn’t interested. I feel like I have so many of my own problems I don’t really want to read about someone else’s!

As I looked around though, everywhere my eyes landed I saw

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart”

God knows I needed to hear that and concentrate on that thought.

So now I have to wait to find out where my husband is going. We have an idea but nothing was concrete.

Unfortunately I think it’s going to be a fair distance.

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