by adustyframe ~ October 30th, 2006

Jus tice (n)
1.The quality of being just; fairness.

2. A. The principle of moral rightness; equity.

B. Conformity to moral rightness in action or attitude; righteousness.

3. Law. The administration and procedure of law.

How ironic that me of all people on a week like this week would check to see the carnival topic.
You see this week, the judge will probably issue a decision in my husband’s appeal.


The Lord knew I needed to meditate on this for a little while.

A brief summary that will probably not make sense.

I promise that those who know every last detail shake their heads in unbelief. Nothing going on makes sense other than this is how God chooses to work.
This spring, my husband’s parole officer said he violated a rule of probation. He was “picked up” and 2 months later a  2 hour hearing was held.
We won that hearing. The truth came out. We felt justice was served.

Then his parole officer appealed the decision of the hearing judge. She did not submit a factual or correct appeal.
The decision (where we won) was overturned and my husband was transferred from a county facility to a state facility.

We have waited many months for this week. We have prayed. We have cried. We have gone to bed and pulled the cover over our heads.

The attorney called me last week to let me know that he received his packet from the state. This means that the judge just did too. The hearing that we won in June had a 100 page transcript. So he is pretty sure the decision will come down this week.

I have hesitated to write about the “system”. In the past, when I heard people who had been in trouble say something about the unfairness of the system it didn’t sit well with me.
I had this feeling that surely nothing happens that people don’t deserve. I didn’t know many things that I have come to know over the past years.

I never knew that people in authority lied. I didn’t realize that agendas sometimes trump truth. I didn’t know that people could be charged with things they did not do.

If you have a loved one in the system, please know that I am not belittling what they do. It’s just that I was in for a rude awakening about how it all works.
I have been stunned to hear lies pour out of the mouth of people when the truth is black and white.
I have been shocked to discover that convictions don’t always line up with the exact facts of the offense.

To say this all has been disheartening to me is an understatement.

My husband is not innocent. We have never one time complained about the sentence he received. We know that he did wrong and he admitted it.
It’s all the extra things that happen. The people in charge that don’t take time to investigate, or listen or be honest.

This winning a hearing to have it overturned due to lies has been a frustrating helpless situation.

We know this week that the judge may not have time to wade through all 100 pages of the transcript. If he doesn’t he may not see the lies that the parole officer was repeatedly caught in. He may not interpret the truth the way we pray he will.

But we know the truth and we are not afraid of it. In the matter that is on appeal, my husband did nothing wrong.

So we wait, and pray and trust.

We know that if we lose this appeal, then my husband has almost 2 years left of time.
That’s a hard road to look down, but at least it is a finite period of time.

If we win? Well first there will be some major hallelujahs belted out. Maybe even some hand waving and crying. And then more questions.
Because if the judge sides with my husband, the probation officer will be less than delighted.
We know that it’s not all peaches and cream.
We know that due to his original wrongdoing, he is under the state’s authority and he will have to submit.

So this week may bring us answers. Not knowing isn’t easy.
My son asked me a couple weeks ago, “How long can they keep daddy?”
I explained it to him by seasons. Fall, winter, spring, summer, fall, winter, and spring. That is the longest they can keep him.
He said “Oh. I can hold on that long for sure.”

I tried to explain that it could be sooner if the judge chooses.
Hard things for a little boy to understand. Hard things for mom and dad too.

So we wait and pray and try to hold it together. This week is momentous. It will bring answers. Hopefully joy.
If it does not, we will be sad.

We will be upset.

We will cry.

I will call my sister and sob on the phone and say “I don’t understand why this is still happening.”

But even if it’s not the answer we pray for, we know that nothing happens that is outside of God’s will. God knows if my husband is truly changed or if there is more work to be done. God will let him come home when God knows he is willing to be sold out for God.

So, even if our bruised hearts have more tears to cry this week, we know the truth in Proverbs 21:1
The king’s heart is in the hand of the LORD, as the rivers of water: he turneth it whithersoever he will.

Whithersoever God wills will be true justice. Home or prison for the rest of the time.

We wait. We pray. We hope. We trust in a God that knows what is best for us.

We also know that those who have lied and those who seek to destroy our family will someday receive justice as well. We know that God is truth and he holds each of us accountable for our words and actions.

As much as we desperately want this to be over, we are truly praying for God’s will to be done.
If you read this please pray that God’s will be done and that he will extend us grace to bear whatever the decision is.


6 Thoughts Shared to Justice

  1. Susanna

    How wonderful that we have a truthful and just God who is not swayed by lies or malicious intent.We can know that before His throne we will get a just hearing. And most importantly of all,our sentance is quashed through His dear Son. I will be praying very much for you. I am glad today is the day I came ‘back on line’!

  2. Jodi

    I’m praying.

  3. Blair

    ((HUGS)) Definitely praying!!

  4. PrayerSister

    We will be praying TONS tonight, for wisdom & patience for the judge; for strength, encouragement & comfort for all of you.
    I know words cannot express how sad I am for you, or how proud I am of you, to read the way you are growing, instead of keeping those covers over your head.

  5. Patricia

    Such wisdom! Please know that my heart and prayers are linked with yours this week. ((((HUGS)))

  6. ChristineMM

    I hear you.
    I am praying for your family!

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