But Daddy WILL be home for Christmas right?
by adustyframe ~ December 13th, 2006said my son as he climbed into the car this afternoon.
We don’t even know when Daddy is coming home. We’re still waiting on this appeal. We don’t know.
“Honey. I don’t think Daddy will be home by Christmas.”
He looked at me with eyes so full of confidence and said “But he will be home for Christmas right?”
How do you look at a precious little boy and tell him no. No baby Daddy will not be home for Christmas.
This is so hard. I know we have so many blessings and we are so thankful for everyone of them. I just so truly wish I could keep my son from his hurt and disappointment.
Tonight he said to me, “If I had $1,000 I’d give it to them so they could let Daddy come home.”
I agreed and tried to explain that it’s not money that keeps him there but time.
“Well how long?” he asked.
And again I have no answer. We know the worst case scenario 18 more months.
(I almost suffocate when I think how long that is in the life of a little boy.)
Best case? We win the appeal and my husband is released.
I just hate that my little boy had this hope in his heart that Daddy will be home. I hate that I have to be the one that tells him it won’t happen.
If we knew, at least we could start a countdown on the calendar. But still we wait.
His appeal has been on file for 5 months. I have no clue why we can’t just get an answer.
I have to pray. Ask God how to deal with a bruised little boy so that I can nourish his weary spirit. Ask him for patience and peace for my husband and I. Ask him to work through the judge to do God’s will. Ask him for grace to accept the decision should it be what we don’t want to hear. Ask him to help me remember how this trial is shaping us into the people he desires us to be and count my blessings.
December 14th, 2006 at 4:02 am
God Bless his little heart.
December 14th, 2006 at 5:05 am
Hi hon, I just discovered your blog through Rocks in My Dryer and I have to say just reading this first post so touches my heart. I will join you in prayer.
All God’s best to you!
December 14th, 2006 at 5:16 am
God has made you so brave. I wish I knew what else I can do, but I am still praying.
December 14th, 2006 at 6:54 am
I keep praying for the Lord’s favor for all of you. And favor in the judge’s eyes and anyone else involved in your husband’s case. Just wanted you to know.
And for the ultimate Christmas gift for your family. I shudder with the enormity of the prayer, but God is faithful and His will is always perfect even when I don’t get it.
December 14th, 2006 at 7:48 am
Every hug, tear and prayer is with you both
December 14th, 2006 at 7:49 am
rewrite that
Every hug, tear and prayer is with all 3 of you
December 14th, 2006 at 12:42 pm
As challenging as this is for him, God has a purpose for your little boy and He is using this very difficult trial to prepare him for that purpose. Only He knows what future ministry your son may be called to as a result of the heartache he is experiencing now! Be encouraged that God loves your child even more than you do! Even when He takes His time in giving us the desires of our heart, He remains faithful. Continue to be the MOM your Son needs and point Him towards His heavenly Father while His earthly Father can not be with him.
Also, pray for someone who is “worse off” than you. Your husband may not be coming home for a long while, but there are those whose husbands will never come home. You pray for them and I’ll pray for you!
December 14th, 2006 at 3:34 pm
I wanted you to know that I am praying for you. My brother has been in prison and my brother in law is currently there now. We are all pretty torn up about it but we see what a good work God is doing in his life while he is there. He is hoping for an early realse in the end of Feb. I know how hard the holidays are having him in there and I can’t imagine what you are going though. I will be praying for you adn your family. May God’s angels surround you and protect you.
December 16th, 2006 at 10:51 am
I am SO praying that your family heals quickly…that they decide on the appeal so at least you will KNOW. Sometimes the “not knowing” is hardest!
And the kids…having to explain to them just breaks your heart. Even though it’s been 18 months, my kids still ask when he’s coming home. Difference is, I have to tell them “never”. Even if he were to get out, he can never come home because of what he’s done.
Sometimes the anger over how he has hurt my little ones threatens to overwhelm. The Mamma Lion in me wants to protect them from pain like this. I don’t know where I would be without Christ; He is the only way I have survived this ordeal and He is the only way I continue to view my husband with compassion.