James woke up sick today.

Within minutes my plan for the day was out the window.

All morning, the phone rang. I had to stop and care for James, answer the phone, try to get some housework done.

I was tired too.

I struggled all day with the feeling that I was getting nothing done.

Of course caring for my sick little boy was accomplishing a very important thing. He needed me to hold him so he could fall asleep to take a nap. I promptly fell asleep too.

I had planned to see Lee today too. He didn’t feel well yesterday and we didn’t have as great a visit as usual. I told him I’d come back today so we could get in a good visit and hopefully he’d be feeling better.

With James throwing up all day, a visit was out of the question. The poor boy can’t even keep popsicles down.

I had a pull in my spirit all day with a need to visit Lee and a need to care for my son.

Not being able to visit Lee is more difficult simply because I can’t just call him and tell him why I couldn’t come.

James said, “Daddy is probably angry that you didn’t come out to see him today.”

I said, “No he’ll understand when he hears you were sick. He will probably just be a little sad and wondering where I am but he’ll want you to feel better most of all.”

Sometimes I wonder if his poor little body has taken on too much stress from this incarceration and I so wish I could take all his hurt and frustration away.

If I had a magic wand to make us all feel better I surely would.

I cuddled next to him when he went to bed tonight. I prayed for God to heal his little tummy and allow him to rest all night. I told God how very thankful Mom and Dad are that he gave us James and what a wonderful blessing he is to both of us.

Mommies just hate to see their baby sick anytime. It made me sad and tired today.

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