Wrapping it up

by adustyframe ~ November 28th, 2007

For the past 6 years, my store has either been in the planning stage or daily operations stage.

Today was the last day.

I was almost as excited today as I was on the first day.

I sold more today though!

The next 3 days are clean up days and then I have my life back.

It feels rather surreal actually. James and I are going to take a few days to just enjoy the sheer pleasure of not having to go out to work.

Now, mind you I have a TON of paperwork to do and I must get things listed on Ebay right away to keep the $$ rolling in! So, I’ll be working, just not having to go out to work.

This closing has been a whirlwind. Sometimes at going out of business sales, people are what I like to call “vultures”. I haven’t had to deal with that one time and  today was the only super grouchy customer I had to deal with the entire month.

This past month has  been one of affirmation. Customers calling and stopping in asking how I’m doing with all of this. Stopping in and saying, “We just wanted to say good bye. We’re going to miss you.”

Today a customer came in on her lunch hour. James and I weren’t there yet so she came back this afternoon just to give me a hug. That one almost made me cry!

I’ve been able to get to know so many really nice people. I’ve learned about their lives. Watched their children grow up. Chatted about all the “mommy” things.

This past 1 1/2 years, I’ve been able to be a very visible representation of the homeschooling community. James’ education attracted a lot of attention and a lot of questions.

I’ve been able to minister too. To a girl that used to be a dancer. She was pregnant with a baby that she was giving up for adoption. She came in often to talk with me and even came to church for awhile. Sadly, I heard that she’s not doing so well now, but I still pray for her.

Several other customers have visited at church with us. I often talked about the Lord or how he was working in our life.

For some reason, people felt free to share their burdens with me. I tried to speak to them in ways that pointed to Christ. I prayed for them. I loved on them.

I will miss that. Not so much that I want to do it again any time soon! However, there is something special about reaching out and touching the lives of others.

Now, one thing I have not shared with you here is that Lee never wanted me to open this store. He and I were at the point in our marriage where we were not doing well. I was very angry with him and even though he didn’t want me to do this I did it anyway.

He supported me in the ways that he could, but this completely unsubmissive act on my  part burdened our relationship in many ways.

Did God bring good out of it? Of course he did.

The store provided most of our income these past 3 years. (A very small income, but an income.) It also provided a way for me to work and still be with my son. I was able to minister.

Yet, I knew that this wasn’t God’s best for our lives. I’ve known for at least a year that this is not God’s plan for me but I didn’t know the answers to “what?” “when?” “how?”. So, I plodded along.

Over the past couple of months, I became very convicted that the time was NOW to close this store. So I am obeying.

It is exhilarating,  suspenseful, and frightening all at once.

I don’t exactly know what it is that God is going to do here.

I’ve done a lot of this type of praying, “Alright, God. I am obeying. I trust you to provide for our needs. You are going to take care of us. Right? Riiiiiigghhhttt?”

I am looking forward to:

Getting my house back in order

Unhurried schooling time

Time to minister in different ways

Seeing what God has for us

I was sharing with a friend from church tonight, that I have had to let so many things go since I started the store. I wonder how many of them I will pick back up, or how many things I’ll realize just  needed to go in the first place.

So, I’m feeling just a tiny bit sad, very much excited, and wondering what sort of adventures God will be taking us on.

Thank you for praying with me that God will make his plans very evident to me.

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Lizzie

10 Thoughts Shared to Wrapping it up

  1. Susanna

    I am so pleased these last fre weeks of ‘work’ have gone smoothly. God is very gracious, even in our mistakes- Look at Sarah and Abraham! Yet they were blessed greatly.
    Looking forward to seeing how He will provide.

  2. Patricia

    I’m excited for you, Lizzie, and will continue to pray for you and your precious family as you seek God’s will for your lives. (((Hugs)))

  3. The NON-Superwoman

    Your step of faith is inspiring! Praying and believing that God will continue to provide above and beyond your expectations.

  4. Christy

    Lizzie, I’m so happy for you. Congratulations. I identify with this “letting go” post. I still wrestle with fear before letting go and trusting Him on new things (He always seems to nail those things that seem to give me security, pulling me far beyond the edge of my comfort zone), but it’s such a delight and so freeing when I obey. Always. So I know you are in for delight and a “lighter” burden as God unfolds yet another step of His good plan for you. Hugs from Tennessee. Hope you and James have a wonderful needed rest for a few days!

  5. EEEEMommy

    Stopping in to catch up. I hadn’t changed my blog-reader to reflect your new website, so obviously it hasn’t been updating. It’s fixed now. I’m excited with you that the burden of the store has been lifted! I appreciate your honesty in your lack of submission in the first place. God continues to use your transparency to challenge, bless, and encourage! Thank you once again for sharing!
    I continue to pray for you as God continues to lead you!
    In Him,
    Angel

    Thank you, Angel. Your comment about being transparent in my lack of submission has actually encouraged me quite a bit since I first read it. Thanks.

  6. Pam

    Congrats as you begin a new chapter in your life walking in obedience…as you step out of the boat with your focus on Christ. Pam, South Bend

  7. Anonymom

    I am glad you have so much peace and confidence as you close this chapter in your lives. May it open up an even more rewarding adventure.

  8. PrayerSister

    Praying for you!

  9. LeftCoastOnlooker

    Hey, if it’s not too pushy of me, I have a Works of God to submit.

    have a great weekend.
    Love you lots

    http://leftcoastonlooker.blogspot.com/2007/11/works-of-god-weekend.html

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