God’s Provision

by adustyframe ~ December 28th, 2007

Time after time throughout this trial, God has provided for us in wonderful ways.

At the beginning, when I looked at this stretch of time, God sent a quiet peace in my heart that James and I would be alright. I knew then as I know now that God would provide for us.

Many of the ways he has provided, I have shared here. Many of these provisions came with a lesson that I need to rest in him and trust.

One thing I was praying for was a camera.  I can live without it of course, but I was praying about whether or not photography  could be a source of income for me. It felt like a big dream and a “someday” type of request.

Through the generosity of friends and the wonderful provision of God, I think that I will be able to order a camera today. I did a lot of research and settled on a camera that’s a step or two down from what I was originally looking at. It will be a very good start and it will be a huge step up from my Fuji FinePix!

I have had a bit of a struggle though.
“Should I really spend this money?”  “What if the car breaks down AGAIN!?” “What if I don’t make any money taking pictures or I don’t get any piano students?” “What if I need that money to pay bills?”

My mom and my friend both said to me, “Do I need to come over there and pinch you!?”

Isn’t it amazing that I can pray for something and see God miraculously provide it and then wonder if I  should really go for it?

Today, I was folding laundry (trying to stay on top of that!), and considering ordering today. I think my mind is made up and that I will be happy with my decision. I am excited and yet there is still that little “What if I need this money for something else?”

God spoke quietly to my heart, “Are you trusting me?”

YIKES! No, to be honest these questions of mine are doubts that God will provide for my future “What ifs?”.
Hasn’t he provided in the past?  Doesn’t he promise to meet our needs?
I wrapped my doubting God in a way that seemed to be “responsible”.

I don’t advocate crazy spending mind you. But instead of using God’s specific provision to a specific request, I wanted to hold onto it in case of “what ifs?”.

Stepping into new territory feels frightening. Closing the store and venturing into new things has been a huge shake up in my life. You can pray for me that I will be sensitive to God’s working and that I will obey his promptings. I sometimes feel like holding onto everything that was “normal”, but God  is prying my fingers loose one by one.

I thank the Lord that he loves me enough to show me my sin. I of all people should not doubt that God will provide for the what if’s down the road.

 Romans 14:23   for whatsoever is not of faith is sin.



7 Thoughts Shared to God’s Provision

  1. Bethany

    I’m excited for how God has provided for you! You might want to check http://www.beachcamera.com/shop/home.aspx for prices–I’ve found them to beat pretty much anything else I can find, either in-store or online.

    Thanks for the link Bethany. I actually ordered it from Amazon for the free shipping;)

  2. Rosheeda

    Be anxious for nothing, but with prayer and supplication, and thanksgiving, make your requests known to Him. He cares for you. It’s always scary to step away from everything that’s normal – trust me, I know – and to follow God on an unclear path. I’m praying for you and your fam.


    Thank you, Rosheeda! I appreciate all prayers!

  3. Ellen

    Hi, Lizzie! I’ve been reading for a few months, and I’m sure I’ve missed a ton of your story. Anyway, I’m writing because my husband recently took a job as a federal prosecutor. This is new territory for us, and I was wondering if there is anything you’d like prosecutors to know, from your particular perspective. Also, I may have missed this, and you may not talk about it, but do you have any idea when his sentence is up? It seemed like it had been extended at some point or something, and my husband said there could be many reasons for that, depending on whether he was in the state or federal system. God bless.

    Hi, thank you for taking the time to ask. I was thinking about this since I read your comment yesterday. I think I’ll email you. I’m still thinking what I would say.

  4. Christy

    Thank you for sharing. I can’t wait for you to get your camera!! 🙂 I understand your struggle, though.

    The last part of your post reminds me of a Corrie ten Boom quote that Shannon shared a while back. It has been real to me in the last couple of years:

    “I have learned to hold all things loosely, so that God will not have to pry them out of my hands.” –Corrie ten Boom

    God specializes in moving us out of our comfort zone … without faith it’s impossible to please Him. It is scary (for me, too!!) but the benefits are abundant. If I’m hanging onto something for security that’s not God, there is danger that I’m using that thing or relationship (or whatever) as my god. He keeps moving us and teaching us to be fluid until our security is simply and soley in Him. Then life becomes an adventure in seeing what He will do next, trusting and thrilling at the knowledge that He is creating a masterpiece that is going to take our breath away with delight … delight here on earth as we have glimpses of His glory … and delight beyond imagination when we see the finished product and bow before Him with our hearts spilling out the song, “Thou art worthy! Thou art worthy!”

    Another encouraging piece of Scripture is Joshua 1:5-9. God was taking His people into a new land, a new territory and Joshua was given the job of being a leader. Notice how many times God told Joshua, “Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified. Do not be discouraged. I will be with you. I will not forsake you.” He also gave him implicit instructions to keep focused: “be careful to obey,” “do not turn to the right or left,” “meditate on my Word day and night.” And repeated promises of “the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go” and “No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life.”

    Praying for you, Lizzie! Hugs from Tennessee. Our journeys are different on the surface, but we can encourage each other to “be strong and courageous” as we journey on deeper still in a thrilling walk with our Creator.

    Christy! Thank you so much for taking the time to share that with me. The thing is I’ve been through this “hold things loosely” lesson before so you’d think I’d have learned it! Apparently not;). God is so good to keep working on me.
    Thank you for the hugs and prayers. We appreciate you so much.

  5. BethanyB

    I just found your site through Biblical Womanhood and have read many, many of your posts. I probably would have saved time if I had just gone through in chronological order, but I skipped around.
    I have been blessed and encourage through your posts and pray God will continue to give you grace and strength through each day.
    I do have a couple of questions for you. You can either answer them here on your blog or email me, either way is fine. I’ll be back to read future posts anyway!
    Have you read For Women Only yet? You mentioned it awhile back in one of your posts and I wanted to make sure you’ve read it.
    Is there an estimated time when your husband will be able to come home? How long has he been gone now? Does James get to see him?
    Thank you for being open and honest. I admire people like you.
    Hope 2008 is a great year for you and your family!
    God bless you!

    Thanks for stopping by and letting me know you’re reading.
    I read For Women Only sometime this summer.

    Lee has been gone for 3 years–just over that. He should be discharged this year. We’re not quite sure how everything is going to work out. James does not visit because we are STILL waiting on a paperwork snafu that has been tied up since June. It’s beyond ridiculous how slow everything moves.

  6. Pam

    for some reason my posts aren’t getting thru–but I’m sure that my prayers are….it is good to know that Lee should be home in your loving arms….with James on his lap before the year 2008 is over….I continue to pray for the Lords protection and provision for all three of you. Pam, South Bend

  7. Jenn

    Lizzie, I’m so happy that the Lord provided an answer to your prayer!

    Me too! God is so good.

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