Mailing my Valentine
by adustyframe ~ February 12th, 2008I wrote out a Valentine to mail to Lee yesterday. I wanted to be sure to pop it in the mail on time.
As I wrote, I was struck by the fact that writing a love note to him was so easy. I shared awhile ago about the Valentine’s day when I couldn’t even write “I love you” in his card.
It was such a blessing to me that I wasn’t short on words. I didn’t have to make myself write something that he’d expect to hear. It came to me so easily. That is truly only God.
The year that I couldn’t write “I love you” in his card, I remember sitting at the desk crying about that. I sat with the card and the pen and I couldn’t think of any reason that I loved this man that I was married to.
What a wonderful work of God that he has brought us both to the place where we can say “I love you” and mean it. We mean it far more than we ever did.
We know how very close we came to losing each other and we are so thankful God did not allow that to happen.
Lee sent me a Valentine that I received in the mail yesterday. He wrote a sweet letter to me. He said that when I went to visit him in segregation, he “fell deeply deeply deeply” in love with me.
That did my hear much good. I know that things are so much better. I know that he loves me more than he ever did, but it was still a precious thing to read.
Valentine’s Day marks 10 years since my husband proposed to me. I’m thankful that this year it’s full of promise and thankfulness and hopes for the years to come.
Here is a wedding photo of Lee and I–not the best one since it’s from behind, but it’s a photo I have on my desk so that I can see it every time I sit down.
February 12th, 2008 at 3:40 pm
I am so thankful that you stopped at my site today. After checking your site I am want to read your journey so far. I will be praying for you and your son. We don’t share the same issues, but some of the experiences you have endured with peoples perception based on your circumstances are common to ours. My son has behavioral issues- due to drug use of his birthmother (also the sin issues we all have.) We are thankful that our current church is very loving and understanding. But, we have had left several churches due to the judgmental attitude.
Thank you for your openness and honesty- I will be coming back to continue reading your story.
Thank you for stopping by! I think that it’s sad the people feel they need to belittle others to puff themselves up! Please come back as you have time:)!
February 12th, 2008 at 4:11 pm
that was a good post. Praise the Lord for the work that has been done in both of your lives.
Yes! Praise the Lord indeed!
February 12th, 2008 at 5:01 pm
Lizzie…..you are beautiful on the inside and the outside……happy Valentines Day.
Pam. South Bend
Thank you, Pam:)
February 12th, 2008 at 5:36 pm
I will also be praying for your husband.
Thank you!
February 13th, 2008 at 6:16 am
I think it’s a lovely picture! I love trains on wedding dresses!
It’s such a marvelous testimony that God has produced such love and even romance through this fiery ordeal. I was thinking about it yesterday, and wondering how many of us are willing to pray that God would do whatever it takes to conform us to the image of the Son, and THEN be willing to accept whatever method He uses to accomplish that. I’m sure at some time you prayed that God would restore your marriage, and breathe new life and love into it, but not in a million years would you have thought that this would be the means that He would use to answer that prayer. I know it hasn’t been easy, but even through the computer screen, you look like Jesus more every day!
Happy Valentine’s Day, Beloved Lizzie! I pray for the day when the three of you are united again, and your love can grow and glorify God even more!
Grace and Peace,
Angel
Angel, you are right that I prayed for this but never thought God would use these means. I think I’ve written about it–I pretty much threw a fit when I realized this was how God was answering my prayers! (insert sheepish ashamed look!)
Thank you for thinking of us and praying for us.
February 13th, 2008 at 9:16 am
That was a very transparent thing that you wrote, about having a hard time finding things about your husband that you loved. Those are hard and painful things to admit. We had a few rocky years before my husband gave his life to Christ, and I remember having the same thoughts.
What the Lord showed me during those years is that love is truly a choice. I chose to love him even when he didn’t “deserve” it. I probably wasn’t the easiest person in the world either, in hindsight!
The Lord really has done restoration and renewal. Isn’t He good to us!?
They are hard and painful, but part of the story. I don’t want people to think this loving him and staying with him was easy as pie! It’s very hard work.
God is so very good!
February 13th, 2008 at 5:56 pm
Your dress has such a GORGEOUS train!
Thank you, Ashley:)! A beautiful train and lacy sleeves is what I wanted most! Imagine my delight to find it in my size on clearance with everything I wanted;)!