It’s a no go

by adustyframe ~ February 27th, 2008

I took money out to the prison on Monday in the hopes that it would be applied to Lee’s account by today.

The chaplain called me this afternoon and said that as of 3:15 the money had not showed up on Lee’s account.  She sounded as though she doubted I had left anything.

That means she doesn’t know me! If there was ANY way I could have made it happen, I’d have done it.

Her phone message said, “Oh well, you can go next month.”

“Oh well” uh huh. I was/am very disappointed. I gain so much strength and ability to carry on by having almost a whole day to be “normal” sitting next to my husband.

Tonight, I drove out to see Lee while James was at AWANA. Lee and I haven’t been able to talk about this yet because the phone credit ran out. (No big deal, it just ran out faster than I realized and I didn’t mail a check fast enough.)

I struggled with disappointment and a heavy discouragement on the way out.  I know that this isn’t the end of the world by any means.

It’s just a frustration and a loss. After a very long line of frustrations and losses.

As I turned onto the road heading to the prison, I saw a glorious sunset. Oranges, and purples across the sky and a glowing orange sun.

It was an excellent reminder to me that God is in control. He sees and he knows and for some reason, we don’t get to go to the marriage seminar together tomorrow.

Lee said that it has to be for the best and “maybe you would have been killed on the way to the prison.” I had to giggle at my sweetie. He’s right though. God has a plan for everything.

I had already lined up child care. So, I decided that I am going to take a little time to just be me. I haven’t had a morning out to relax in years.

I might poke around at the antique store or go thrifting all by myself. I’m even thinking of treating myself to a hot drink and sitting and reading in solitude.

That will be fun and relaxing but it will also aid me in my “I must not think about it” plan.

Thank you for praying with me.

Lizzie

9 Thoughts Shared to It’s a no go

  1. TransitionGirl

    I’m sorry to hear about the mixup but I glad that you and Lee have such a positive and trusting faith in the Lord. Enjoy your day to yourself and get refreshed in the Lord. 🙂

    Thank you:)

  2. Ame

    I’m sorry ;(

    Thinking about you and praying for you.

    Thanks, Ame.

  3. Marie

    Oh Lizzie. I’m sorry you won’t be able to go…really sorry. I know how much these monthly marriage seminars mean to you. It’s hard for us who aren’t going through this trial to realize how many little annoying things have to be in a row to make things happen – things that you have no control over – like money being transferred electronically by a certain time just so you can see your husband. That is surely an ordeal.

    I continue to be amazed and give glory to God that you (both of you) are able to maintain such a mature attitude and not lose sight of the big picture (God’s sovereignity). I’m sure that in your shoes, I would be having a major pity party by now!!

    You are still in my prayers, and I continue to hope and pray that the 3 of you will be reunited soon, and continue to be a testimony of God’s grace to those who know you.

    (((hugs)))

    Thank you, Marie.

  4. Jeana

    I’m so sorry! I know how much you look forward to those. I hope you enjoy your time to yourself, even if it is “second best” to time with your husband.

    Thank you, Jeana.

  5. Erin

    Lizzie-

    De-lurking to say how sorry I am that you will not be able to enjoy that time with your husband this month. I know there is no way I could possibly understand without being in a similar situation, but I just want you to know that I am praying for you and Lee and hope that you enjoy your “morning off”.

    Erin

    Thank you, Erin. Thank you for de-lurking too! Don’t be a stranger.

  6. Jenn

    Oh Lizzie, I’m so sorry you won’t be able to attend. I know how much you both look forward to spending the day together.

    I hope that, despite the change in plans, you are able to do something special for yourself and have a good time. You deserve it, girlfriend!

    Thanks, Jenn:)

  7. Pam

    I too am sorry for the disappointment,,,,I’m glad God is keeping you all safe and in His loving embrace. Pam, South Bend

    Thank you, Pam.

  8. Alesha

    I am so, so sorry that things fell apart right here at the last minute and you won’t be able to attend the marriage seminary. Even Scripture says, “Hope deferred maketh the heart sick…”, so be comforted that God knows and understands.

    I pray He gives you a sweet time of refreshment as you are able to go out by yourself.

    Alesha

    Thank you, Alesha.

  9. Susan

    Dear Lizzie, Just want to say that I’m also sorry that you couldn’t go and happy that your man loves you. Love, Susan

    Thank you, Susan:)

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