I’m not used to it
by adustyframe ~ April 13th, 2008I shared in this post, that I have been struggling with fears about the unknown.
This change has knocked me flat and all the things I’ve done to cope these past years will change. I’m not quite sure what to do.
While I was struggling with fears–giving into them more than I should–I wrote to Lee about the things I am worried about.
I shared all of this with him again the other night when I visited.He took my hand and said, “Come here.”
We walked across the visiting room, and he asked the attendant for a Bible. He said, “After I got your letter, I wanted to share these verses with you.”
He opened the Bible to several passages and began reading the Bible to me. He challenged me on my worry. He reminded me it’s a sin. He read from God’s word about God’s love and tender care for us.
I had to smile and praise the Lord for this wonderful work. I haven’t had a godly husband before. I was always the one carrying the “spiritual load”. The one bringing up a Bible verse or bringing the conversation around to what God would want or what the Bible says to do.
Sometimes, if I am honest with you, when he stops me short with a Biblical reproof, I feel irritated. (Don’t we all have to deal with this when being confronted with sin?)
That irritation quickly changes to joy and a realization that my marriage has completely changed.
I have a husband who desires to be a godly leader! I am not used to it, but I wouldn’t change it for the world.
What a relief to have him carrying the “spiritual load”.
Today he told me that he’s reading “The Power of a Praying Husband” again.
I’m trying to figure out how to put this into words and am probably not doing a very good job, but Lee’s spiritual leadership produces a wonderful peace in my heart.
Nothing has changed about our unknowns. The only difference is my husband’s desire to lead. What a blessing.
I know that you have prayed for me too. Thank you.
God has abundantly blessed me. I am so thankful for my husband. I am also thankful for the encouragement he send through each of you.
He is good.
April 13th, 2008 at 6:49 pm
Praise the Lord! I’m glad that Lee is opening his heart to the Lord’s work. I’m sure Lee will be used mightily by the Lord, in your family and outside.
April 13th, 2008 at 6:53 pm
Dear Lizzie, This is awesome. You have a godly man! Woohoo!
April 14th, 2008 at 4:24 pm
I think that a marriage in which both parties are equally committed to God and to one another is the perfect blend.
If you think of marriage as a triangle, with God at the top and each of you at the bottom corners… as you both grow closer to God, you also grow closer to one another. Picture it… a triangle shrinking as the bottom corners close in toward God at the top. Groovy, huh?