The Parole Officer
by adustyframe ~ May 7th, 2008I spoke with her today.
This is a very hard thing for me to do. I don’t know exactly why. I think that the parole officers Lee has had in the past have sort of stripped me of my confidence.
I needed to ask her some questions and clarification of things she told him yesterday.
I prayed, “Ok God. She is just a person. I can do this. I can do all things through Christ.”
I called her and could tell it was not a good time for her to speak with me. She offered to call me back. So I waited.
My stomach feeling sick. My hands feeling shaky. It’s really rather stupid, but that’s how it is.
When she called back she was pleasant to me. That is a switch. Many of them have been nasty to me.
She answered my questions. I thanked her for her time.
When I hung up, I let out a deep breath. I feel like I’ve been through a battle today.
Lee doesn’t understand why I don’t like to talk to them or why it’s so hard for me.
I think that it has to do with the fact that she has complete control of my husband. I don’t want to upset her. I don’t want to say something I shouldn’t. I don’t want her to think that I will get in her way.
But the fact is that he is my husband. He is the other half of me. So the fact that she has so much control of him, means really that she wields much power over me in many senses.
I just have to remember that God is so much bigger.
May 7th, 2008 at 12:04 pm
Dear Lizzie, Words cannot express how I feel for you at this moment. I am going to pray for that parole officer and bless her abundantly. Then I am going to pray for you, Lee and James. You have helped me so much and now I just want you to be helped and have your husband home with you. God WILL make a way for you – please sing that little song if you know it. Love, Susan
Thank you. We need to pray for her too and that’s something I have to remember. Praying for US is easy. Remembering her in prayer takes more discipline. Thank you for praying for her too.
May 7th, 2008 at 12:10 pm
For, lo, thine enemies, O LORD, for, lo, thine enemies shall perish; all the workers of iniquity shall be scattered. But my horn shalt thou exalt like the horn of an unicorn: I shall be anointed with fresh oil. Mine eye also shall see my desire on mine enemies, and mine ears shall hear my desire of the wicked that rise up against me. The righteous shall flourish like the palm tree: he shall grow like a cedar in Lebanon. Those that be planted in the house of the LORD shall flourish in the courts of our God. They shall still bring forth fruit in old age; they shall be fat and flourishing; To shew that the LORD is upright: he is my rock, and there is no unrighteousness in him. Psalm 92:9-15 KJV
Thank you, Susan.
May 7th, 2008 at 12:56 pm
I have had something happen to me in the last few years that has stripped me of much of my confidence too. I do a couple of things when I feel pressured……first I say to myself “come Holy Spirit”….then I think that Jesus is right here with me…..then I take my time….as best I can I try not to let anyone “RUSH ME” to answere or speak….even if I have to say “I’m sorry let me process that …….let me think about that for a minute”. Lizzie I pray for you to feel at peace…..Pam, South Bend
All good advice that I am going to take to heart. Thank you.