We’re back

by adustyframe ~ June 30th, 2008

Lee and I had a relaxing weekend together. We decided to forgo the sightseeing and did a lot of resting.

We haven’t slept in the same bed for over 3 years. It was delightful to sleep with my husband curled up next to me.

I was so thankful to be able to ride instead of driving in the busy city. I felt so cared for and protected.

The wedding was pretty. My hands didn’t sleep through the wedding (lol). Thank you for praying about that.

During one portion, I heard sniffling at the front pew–where my husband was sitting. I was sad that I couldn’t comfort him, but I was definitely stuck at the piano.

Later, I asked him what made him sad. He said the sermon and the vows made him realize what a rotten husband he is. I told him that he’s not a rotten husband and he has not been one for a long time. I told him that if something convicted him, he can only move forward from today. He can’t change all the past things.

I will admit to you though that it does my heart good to see him feeling and admitting emotions. That is a very new thing in his life. It’s uncomfortable and difficult for him, but I am thankful that he is expressing his thoughts and feelings to me.

James did great too. He had a lot of fun with his cousin and friend.

I cried when Lee dropped me off late Saturday night. I realized that one night was NOT enough.

We had a wonderful time together, but it was such a huge reminder of all we have lost and all we are still dealing with.

The simple truth is that I miss him and I wish this was all over. I want us to be back to “normal”. I don’t want to have to wave to him as he pulls out of the driveway.

In short, I want my life back.


9 Thoughts Shared to We’re back

  1. Kim

    Hang in there, Sweetie! I can only imagine how tough this is, but I know from reading your blog, you are tougher by far!

    Thank you, Kim. This felt like a hug:)!

  2. TransitionGirl

    it’ll soon be over! i’ll pray it’ll be soon over.

    Thank you!

  3. Susanna

    Ahhh, Lizzie. So thankful it all went well but my heart is aching for you still. May God give you all every grace you need to bear this and confidence for the future.Praying it will soon be over with and that not only can you get your life back but that it will be a much better life than the one you had.

    Thank you, Susann. The truth is that my life will be so much better than it ever was before:). I just need patience.

  4. Jenn

    Oh what a bittersweet weekend, huh? How touching Lee was so moved during the service. Praying there will be many many more nights for you two together SOON.

    Thanks:)! That’s what I’m praying too!

  5. Ame

    life can be so bitter-sweet. i’m thankful … and sorry.
    Yes it can be. It was good though!

  6. Chel

    I’m so glad you got to spend the night together… to share the wedding and a weekend.

    Me too!

  7. Pam

    I could hardly wait to read about your time together….God is truely blessing you all.

    Thanks, Pam:) You made me smile.

  8. Katherine

    I am so happy for y’all, that you had a night together!

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