James and I went to talk with Pastor today.
This has been wearing on my son and he’s having a hard time without his Daddy.
He asked me why God let his Dad do something wrong. He said to me, “You told me that if we believe in the Lord, he helps us to do right. So why didn’t God stop dad?”
What a big question! It’s probably one that I’ve asked before.
I told him that God gives each of us the choice to do what’s right and he doesn’t make us obey. We talked about a lot of other things. He has been sad and clingy. He doesn’t like me to leave him at Grandma’s or a friends.
He worries about things that I wish a little boy never had to think of.
We sat in Pastor’s office. James wasn’t overly excited about it. He is like his father in the not sharing emotions category.
Pastor prayed with us and then asked James some questions. They talked about all sorts of things. Pastor explained to James that God enables us to do right but we can always choose.
He used obeying Mom as an example of this. James got a big sheepish grin. I think that illustration hit home.
Pastor told him that it’s ok for men to cry. He said, “I cry.”
I said, “Daddy cries.” Then Pastor said, “Your Daddy and I have cried together.”
Aww! That’s something I didn’t know. Our Pastor truly has been a support and friend through all of this. We are so blessed.
Pastor told James many things that I’ve already said, but I think it did him good to hear it from another person. Pastor told James that he can come talk to him anytime.
I think that up until this point, I’ve been able to be the support James needs. But I didn’t want to “mess up” by pushing his questions and fears to the side. Pastor gave me some things to watch for and all around I think it was just good to sit together and talk about God.
Pastor told James, that right now as hard as it is we just have to find a way to make it through this. He said he’s praying that God will do whatever is necessary to bring Lee home. He told James to pray that too.
Then he said, “You are doing good. Your Mom is doing good too. She has done a fantastic job with all of this.”
I said, “Yes she has!” and we all had a good laugh.