The Bathroom Episode

by adustyframe ~ August 4th, 2008

I’ve put off writing this post for almost as long as I’ve had this blog.

It’s a sensitive topic, not easily dealt with, and one that I think most Christians don’t like to think about.

Throughout this trial, I’ve come to realize that we are very much in a spiritual battle.

Ephesians 6:12

For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

I will preface this post by sharing a couple things. I absolutely believe that God is more powerful than anything we will ever fight against. I do not like talking about the devil or demons, however, I do not believe that ignoring their existence is wise.

I do not believe that a Christian can be demon possessed, but I do believe that demons can and do oppress us.

I have prayed about this post and am praying as I post. I do not share this lightly, but I believe with all my heart that God wants me to share this story and so I will.

I was told one time that Christians give too much power to the devil. I think that is true if we’re saying, “The devil made me do it.” But I disagree if we’re talking about spiritual warfare and the devil’s plan to destroy our marriages, homes, and testimonies.

I have felt his ugly presence in my home before and I know that relying on God and yielding to him is necessary if we are going to live a life of victory.

I Peter 5:8

Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:

In this post, I shared the events that led up to the story I’m going to share here. You may want to read it in order to better understand what was going on.

On the Sunday after this, I woke up heavy hearted. I literally felt like my chest was being crushed. Since I skipped church the week before, I began going through the motions of getting ready and getting James presentable.

I stood in the bathroom, looking in the mirror as I did my hair and cried. I didn’t sob, tears just rolled down my face the entire morning.

We left for church. I felt very strange. It was like I was there but I wasn’t. I cried through the whole service and felt very much like I was in a fog. The heaviness in my chest continued and I was very uncomfortable.

I couldn’t concentrate on the service and I know I didn’t get anything out of it.

When we went home, I fixed James his lunch and laid down for a rest on the couch. He played and I rested. When I woke up, I was still crying and felt like I couldn’t breathe.

This continued through the afternoon.

I got ready for the evening service. Not because I wanted to go, but because James wanted to attend the kids program that night.

As I stood in front of the mirror again, I watched the tears roll down my cheeks. I noticed how hollow my eyes looked. My chest was so heavy, it literally felt like something was sitting on me crushing it. Breathing was laborious.

I can’t remember if I prayed. Maybe I asked God to help me. Sometimes throughout this trial, “Oh God please help me” was the only prayer I could muster.

Suddenly, I realized what was going on.

I said, “I am going to church and you cannot stop me. In the Name of Jesus, go away and LEAVE ME ALONE!”

Immediately, the heaviness of my chest left. I could breathe. The tears stopped and I felt a lightness that had been missing all week.

I sat down on the toilet and prayed. (Proof that we can pray anywhere!)

I asked God to please protect and surround us. I asked for strength to lean on him and not allow the devil to gain a foothold in my life. I asked God to remove any traces of the fear and depression that I had carried with me all day.

When we went to church, I told Pastor what had happened. He said that he wasn’t surprised that I would deal with spiritual warfare since my husband was also dealing with it. He said it gave him better direction how to pray for us.

Everytime, I think of this story, I am thankful that the Name of Jesus is so powerful that it makes demons flee. I laugh sometimes too because all it took for the oppression to leave me was mentioning Jesus name. I don’t mean “all it took” lightly, only that all I had to do was call on Jesus. He took care of the rest.

After this, I realized afresh that I must depend on God. I knew that I could not deal with this trial without him. I should never think that I can do this on my own because I cannot. After experiencing this, I would be foolish to buy into that lie.

I am so thankful that his name is powerful.

*A more detailed discussion on demons and Biblical answers can be found here.

Here is another one from Blue Letter Bible I don’t know if I wholeheartedly endorse either link, but am sharing them for more information.*

As I blog about this trial, I covet your prayers. Many times things have happened that show me that the enemy is not pleased when God’s truth is openly shared. I didn’t share this post lightly. I pray that if you are reading this and you have dealt with similar issues, you will turn to the only One who is powerful enough to fight our spiritual battles.

Philippians 2:10

That at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of things in heaven,

and things in earth, and things under the earth;

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Lizzie

12 Thoughts Shared to The Bathroom Episode

  1. Ame

    the spiritual battle is so real it’s almost tangible sometimes. may God open our eyes to see His army surrounding us when all we seem to be able to see is the enemy.

  2. Prairie Rose

    (Lizzie, if you disagree with these links, feel free to delete…)

    This is an area of Christianity I’d heard little talked about for many many years. And yet I believe so many Christians are majorly hindered in their walk, their lives, their spiritual health for lack of knowledge! God put me through some intensive and repetitive training in my own life in regards to this issue a year or so ago and it made all the difference in the world for me, and I’d like to shout it from the rooftops and share it with the world but people think you’re stark raving mad and reject the entire message, so I have to tone it down and share it more subtly, I guess. 🙂

    I did want to recommend a couple of excellent resources for anyone wanting to learn more, though.

    1) Beth Moore’s Breaking Free study for women available through Lifeway at http://www.lifeway.com

    2) Neil Anderson’s materials available through Freedom in Christ Ministries at http://www.ficm.org , particularly The Bondage Breaker.

    Both books/studies are also available through Amazon.

  3. Tara

    Thank you for sharing this, Liz. And Amen!! Praying for you now. Adding a book to the list for those who may want to read more – Kay Arthur has an excellent, very Biblically-based and balanced study on spiritual warfare “Lord, is it Warfare? Teach Me To Stand.” (((((hugs))))) A wise friend told me that you don’t want to look for a demon behind every rock, but it is also a very real battle – otherwise God’s word wouldn’t talk about it and tell us how to arm ourselves for it, yes? Again, thank you for sharing, for being real, and for being vulnerable.

  4. Susanna

    My dad once told us about a ‘dream’he had had.He was pinned up against a wall by something unseen and no matter how much he struggled or tried to break free he could not- until he called the name of Jesus Christ. Satan is devious- even in our sleep he can get to us, yet our God is there also- praise His Holy and powerful name. I also read a book once called ‘pop goes the gospel’.Things happened to people there too- real things. Although we must not dwell on the powers of evil we need to acknowledge that they are real and there. Thank you for sharing this and may God continue to be your refuge, stronghold and strength- your shield and protector.

  5. Barbara H.

    I agree, Lizzie, sometimes people put too much emphasis on the devil and blame him for every little thing, but on the other hand we sometimes forget that he is a roaring lion walking about seeking whom he may devour. I know sometimes when I have been experiencing something like this, I think, “Why is he bothering me? I’m nobody.” But it’s not me — it’s the One Whose I am. And then the temptation comes that maybe I should just lay low so as not to attract too much attention from the evil one, but that’s not a godly response.

    I love what you said that we just call on Jesus and He does the rest. Amen! What a blessing, and what a reason not to fear the enemy. Greater is he that is in us than he that is in the world.

  6. Katherine

    At first, as I was reading, I thought you were foreshadowing something else, and I was anticipating the big reveal, LOL.

    As a teenager, I went through a depression that I did not tell anyone about. My only defense was to pray to God–and when I woke up every morning, with this horrible, self-loathing feeling in my chest, I started my prayer with the words, “In the name of Jesus Christ”. It ALWAYS worked. The feeling disappeared and I could start my day. This depression lingered for at least a month and one day I woke up feeling at peace.

    Since then, I have always used Jesus’ name to pray and teach my children to pray in this way, especially when feeling fearful or depressed–it IS amazing, the power of his name!
    🙂
    Kat

  7. Rosheeda

    This topic is so real and so personal to me. I am also going thru Kay Arthurs’s ‘Lord Is It Warfare…’

    I am going to email you something. Wow.

    Rosheeda

  8. Marie

    Lizzie,

    I clearly remember this period of trial and your asking for prayer over it – which I gave gladly, but wasn’t sure what all was going on. I also think sometimes people “give the enemy too much credit” (for example, blaming him if they can’t find a parking space in front of the church – yes; I’ve heard that); but you are right. Spiritual warfare of this type is real, and he goes after our emotions. Causes us to doubt. It’s happened to me before too, (although not to that extent and not with physical manifestations), and I’ve been told that just praising God spontaneously and thanking Him for anything you can think of can cause that pointless depression to dissipate.

    Calling on Jesus in our doubts, pain, fear…it’s so key. And yet, so easy to forget. The only reason Satan is going after you and Lee is because you are clearly a threat to him. You are both staying in the race – two years after the fact, you are still showing daily what good and faithful servants you are – and the attacks are not likely to end anytime soon. (Probably he’ll take a different angle next time – wherever you’re weak.)

    Thanks for sharing this – it’s a good reminder (to me, anyway) or how real the schemes of the enemy are. (I’ll have to go back and read the Blueletter Bible link – they have some good commentaries.)

  9. Senkyoshi

    AMEN! I serve in an idolatrous country and I understand what you are saying. I have prayed a similar prayer myself. My favorite verse to quote is “Greater is He that is in me, than he that is in the world!”

  10. Janet

    Lizzie,

    I’m going through something now and your words are very much needed. Thank you.

    God has allowed you and Lee to go through these things because He’s going to use you mightily. You have learned great things through your heartbreaks, things that cannot be learned otherwise. You will comfort others through your testimony as the Bible says in 2 Corinthians 1:4.

    Thank you for being vulnerable and so very honest. You are touching so many people that you may not know until you are in Heaven.

    Thank you, Janet. You have encouraged me. I’m thankful that God can use my meager writings to encourage you.

  11. Alesha

    Thank you for sharing this experience. I understand your hesitance, but know that God’s timing is always right and apparently now was the appropriate time for you to share it.

    I went through similar experiences with our son. He is adopted, and has many special needs (cerebral palsy, epilepsy and hydrocephalus…to name a few.)

    I don’t really know how to explain what we went through, because I sound a little like a bad fiction writer when I try to explain it.

    Suffice it to say that I have walked through my house on more than one occasion reminding the enemy that we were God’s children, we lived in God’s home, it was covered by the blood of Jesus and there was NO ROOM for him to be there and that he needed to go back to h*ll where he came from and where he belonged.

    Then I would sing every hymn that I could think of that mentioned the blood of Jesus and I quoted Scripture after Scripture over my son.

    My husband has told me that he has done the same on several occasions, too.

    The enemy is real. He is powerful, and he wants to destroy us. BUT as we stay in God’s Word, remember WHO we belong to, and throw all our dependence on Christ, we are SAFE from his onslaughts.

    Thanks again for sharing,
    Alesha

    Thank you, Alesha for sharing your story. I’ve appreciated the comments and emails I’ve received about this.

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