Preoccupied~repost from 2006

by adustyframe ~ December 23rd, 2008

“One response was given by the innkeeper when Mary and Joseph wanted to find a room where the Child could be born. The innkeeper was not hostile; he was not opposed to them, but his inn was crowded; his hands were full; his mind was preoccupied. This is the answer that millions are giving today. Like a Bethlehem innkeeper, they cannot find room for Christ. All the accommodations in their hearts are already taken up by other crowding interests. Their response is not atheism. It is not defiance. It is preoccupation and the feeling of being able to get on reasonably well without Christianity.”
~ Billy Graham ~

This quote is pertinent to me this year. My hands are full, my mind is preoccupied.

I mentioned at Thanksgiving, that although my husband has been gone for 2 years, this Christmas season is the first one that he is completely away from us.

His absence at Christmas causes a sharp grief in my heart. We began dating at this time of year.
His family’s Christmas party is this weekend. It was at their Christmas party, that he introduced me to them. I don’t want to go without him. I want to stay home and cocoon in my house. But we will go. I want my son to see his cousins. Grandma wants us to be there.

It’s hard to go without him. Hard isn’t even the word.

I am tearing up as I decorate. Cooking shows give me a lump in my throat. All the favorite movies and shows are about family togetherness at this time of year. Everything hurts to see and hear.

We have always tried to put Christ first in our Christmas. We do a simple season celebrating the true reason for the season. We have just always done this together.

I am asking the Lord to help me remember in my grief, that he is why we celebrate Christmas. His tremendous sacrifice is the only reason we celebrate this time of year.

Not family togetherness. We can have Christmas no matter where we are or whomever is present or not present.

Christmas is not about my husband being home or gone. As desperately as we wish he were home with us especially now, I must not allow my sadness to overshadow the real reason we celebrate Christmas.

If I let tears or an aching heart stand in the way of worshipping my Savior, I am no better than any other occupied person.

I can worship at his feet. I can serve and give and love and pray. I can grieve and be sad as well. I just can’t allow it to fill my heart and crowd out thankfulness to my Lord.

Lizzie

4 Thoughts Shared to Preoccupied~repost from 2006

  1. Pam

    Amen Lizzie….AMEN

  2. Paula

    “I can worship at his feet. I can serve and give and love and pray. I can grieve and be sad as well. I just can’t allow it to fill my heart and crowd out thankfulness to my Lord.”

    What a beautiful post.

  3. katrina

    I understand your desire to stay home cocooned in your house. There were a few hours last week when I thought I would be able to go home for Christmas. Now I’m having the same trouble watching Christmas movies or listening to Christmas music. Especially anything having to do with going home. Until the possibility arose, I didn’t realize how homesick I was. I don’t even want to call and talk, because I don’t want my parents to feel bad because it didn’t work out. I know I’ll break down and cry on the phone. When I’m sad, I tend to clean. I guess I’ll get a lot of cleaning done over the next few days. I have 5 & 1/2 of the next 8 working days off. A lot of time to fill.

    I’ll be praying that you will be able get through the season well.

  4. Liza's Eyeview

    Wow! I like that quote – something for me to ponder more this Christmas. Thanks for sharing that Lizzie.

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