Prayers for James

by adustyframe ~ January 26th, 2009

At night, I check on James before I go to bed.

I rub his little head and pray for him.

I pray that God will fill all the lonely places in his heart. I pray that this won’t ruin him. I pray that he will grow up and be a godly man and have a desire to serve God.

Daddy being gone has become normal to him (and to me). That makes me sad.

It’s good in a lot of ways. If it was always still fresh and raw, daily life would be difficult. I’m glad that we can settle into a routine and go through our daily lives without being torn up all day everyday.

Yet, it still makes me sad that it’s become normal.

Yesterday he said several things that reminded me what a precious child he is.

We were watching Extreme Makeover and as they raised the flag at the people’s home he said,

“It’s amazing that a piece of fabric means so much.”

(Except when he says “amazing” he says “eee meezing” which makes me smile–he’s still a little kid!)

Also when Extreme Makeover started he said, “Hey Mom, they could build a house for us because having your dad in jail is really like having a disability.”

It’s not a physical disability by any means (and for the record, we’re not in need of an Extreme Makeover), but you know I think to him it really does feel like a disability.

It’s something missing. Something that people don’t understand. Something that hurts and sets us apart.

I was glad that he said that because sometimes I’m not sure how he feels about everything. He’s not into talking about his feelings (just like his daddy) but he offers little glimpses.

When I prayed for him last night, I prayed that God would somehow please just get us through this and that James will be ok.

When I climbed into bed, this song was on the radio. Perfect timing.


12 Thoughts Shared to Prayers for James

  1. TransitionGirl

    This song. I used to sing in when I was depressed or facing tough situations. Esp on my bed, would sing it while crying. It never failed to remind me that He is in control, even when it seemed like everything was in chaos. It’s become my “reminder” song, to encourage me.

    It’s such a good song isn’t it?

  2. Christy

    Praying for sweet James. I’m going to start saying “eee meezing” just so I’ll remember James every time I say it.

    Thank you for praying for us:) I get such a kick out of eee meezing:)

  3. Pam

    What a precious little boy….and a mom with a sweet…sweet spirit….it is a honor to pray for all 3 of you. Pam,South Bend

    Thank you, Pam! It’s a blessing to have people pray for us.

  4. Lisa

    Just a reminder that you do have sisters in Christ who are praying for you. We may not leave many comments, but we are lifting your arms as Aaron and Hur did for Moses. I was just praying for you this morning, and thanking God for helping you to be such a testimony for him. I know that you have had a lot of “encouragement” to leave your husband, or to put your son in school, so you can go to work. In standing against that persecution, you have been a strong testimony for the Lord, and an encouragement to do the right thing. You have no idea how many lives you have touched.

    Also, I was struck by your hope that James would not be “ruined”. As mother, I do understand your heart, but I wanted to encourage you to stand on God’s Word, and not let these fears overtake you.

    I John 5:14&15 And this is the confidence that we have in him, that, if we ask any thing according to his will, he heareth us: And if we know that he hear us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of him.”

    Romans 8:28 “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”

    Ecclesiastes 3:11a “He hath made every thing beautiful in his time:”

    Thank you for your prayers and encouragement! What a blessing to me to have people holding up my arms!

  5. CM

    Its so hard when you have children. When life’s trials come around, we know we can somehow get through them and be ok. And even if we’re not getting through them ok, we still just go on. But we always wonder how this will affect our children. There are so many things that are out of my control right now (probably a good thing), that I wonder how this will affect my daughter in the long run. But God knows. And He loves her so much more than I ever could. And He treasures her future and wants the best for her. My guess is that she will turn out just fine.

  6. Cindy

    I’ve lifted you precious little boy up in prayer today (and you!)

  7. Susanna

    I have never heard that song before .We will be praying for you all. I take great comfort in the fact that God is in control of all that happens to my boys- I often wonder if I am ‘ruining’ them through my failings. He will keep your James and my boys and honour the prayers of their parents- He knew JAmes would walk this path with you- and He will make the way straight.

  8. Tina Ritz

    This song is so touching. I have a friend who is going through a rough time in her life and wouldd like to forward this song to her, but don’t know how. Can you help? I pray for you and your son often. God bless.

  9. Milehimama

    I pray that God will fill all the lonely places in his heart.

    It’s so hard to watch our little one’s suffer!

    Have you ever heard this song? It’s from the 80’s, but it’s my favorite.

    Prayer by Petra

    The refrain is “Keep the ones I love so dearly, fill their emptiness while I am gone…This is my prayer, lifted to You, knowing You care, even more than I do.” It’s about a family that is separated, and the father is praying that God will fill the lonely places.

  10. designsbyjenean

    How precious. Out of the mouths of babes. Yes, a piece of fabric does mean so much. Cherish every moment because time really does fly. Mine’s 21 now and I can still remember the precious moments.

  11. Stephanie

    I guess we must remember that though these trials seem so unfair, that God can use them to shape our children for His purpose. It is hard as a momma because we want to shield them. I am learning that even though trials come, that our children seeing our faith in action speaks volumes! Praying for your sweet little boy!

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