Sufficient
by adustyframe ~ May 5th, 2009Last night I woke up feeling like one of my killer headaches was coming on.
I prayed and asked the Lord to please not let me have another headache.
I believe I’ve shared that many years ago, I fell at work. I suffered quite a bit of soft tissue damage. I went through a lot of therapy and I still see a chiropractor quite frequently. When I first fell, I couldn’t even turn my head. Hitting any bumps on the road reduced me to tears. It was a really bad injury.
My current chiropractor xrayed me on my first visit. She came into the exam room and said, “That was a really bad fall.”
I started crying when she said that. In a way it was a blessing to have someone validate all the pain I had been living with. Yes, it was bad and it continues to plague me.
I do stretches, I get regular treatment, I have stuff to massage into it when it hurts, but it still often causes me to miss out on a day or two while I try to relieve the headache.
I woke up this morning and took a hot shower, but the headache persists. I laid back down and fell asleep for quite awhile. It’s still bothering me quite badly.
I haven’t accomplished much of anything today–literally.
When I was finally dragging myself out of bed today, I said, “Lord, I prayed and asked you to take this away. I hate having these wasted days.”
A quiet thought came to mind, “My grace is sufficient for thee.”
So for some reason, I have to know that God allowed this injury and pain in my life. For some reason he allows me to suffer this headache today. His plan for me today is to rest instead of doing all the things I wanted to do.
I don’t know why. I don’t know why he allows our bigger trial to continue. I don’t know why he allows any of the hard things other people deal with.
But I do know that his grace is sufficient and I need to trust.
2 Corinthians 12:9
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
May 5th, 2009 at 12:32 pm
Beautifully written… and good job keeping your ears open!
May 5th, 2009 at 2:06 pm
oh, amen, sister…I have learned over the past several years that God sometimes allows the pain to promote rest.
Within myself, I am constantly pushing to do more, go faster, accomplish more, etc. Even my brain has a hard time resting.
So, God has gifted me with pain…and with that came the grace to endure it.
I really try to be peaceful and quiet in my spirit all the time now, so that my body can rest even if I’m not sick or in pain. I want to be a good student and learn the lessons He has for me. : )
Alesha
May 5th, 2009 at 2:30 pm
I love what you say about the doctor validating your pain. I had a similar experience lately, not about pain, but about trials. Those sorts of words can make all the difference, and can surely cause the cleansing tears to flow. My goodness.
Migraines I understand, so your headaches strike a chord with me even though they have different sources.
Hope you rest good tonight.
May 5th, 2009 at 6:43 pm
Lizzie, I didn’t know you suffered with chronic pain. On top of everything else you have to deal with right now. But that’s totally of God – how He gave you the grace to even see what the biblical response is – to realize His grace is sufficient. Not that it makes it easy, but at least you have the right perspective. God will surely bless that, as He is already.
May 5th, 2009 at 7:10 pm
Amen.
Thank you.