Lean on whom?

by adustyframe ~ May 14th, 2009

Earlier this week, my sister called to ask if anyone had called me about Dad.

I got that rising panicky feeling as I waited for her to elaborate.

We thought that he had a stroke because of the symptoms, but no one knew anything for certain. We had to wait while Mom and Dad were in the ER.

I couldn’t do anything but pray while I waited. Thankfully, it turned out to be a concussion. (That sounds like a funny thing to be thankful for, huh?) He fell and hit his head and his inability to focus and speak clearly led people to believe he had suffered a stroke.

He’s been checked out a couple times this week and seems to be fine. He just needs to take it easy.

While I waited to hear what was going on, my thoughts were of course, “I hope he’s ok and that we won’t be going to a funeral this week.” But then, I had to fight anger at Lee.

He should have been here with me. I shouldn’t have to think about losing a parent and not having my husband to support me.

I know it’s not wrong to feel anger about Lee’s absence. It is his fault and his absence leaves me vulnerable in many ways. But I also need to remember that God is always here with me.

I have a bad habit of leaning on people more than I should. God reminds me over and over to lean on him most of all.

I’m so thankful that my family isn’t facing a death or disability this week. We’ve even snickered a bit about Dad’s fall. I told him to video it next time so we can win the $10,000 on the funny home videos show.

But even if things were different and we had suffered a loss this week, God would extend his grace  whether or not Lee was here with me. I need to remember that.

lizzie2-2

Lizzie

7 Thoughts Shared to Lean on whom?

  1. Beth

    Sorry to hear of your Dad’s fall. It is a scary time when you don’t know for sure. Glad he is okay.

    Thank you! We are too.

  2. Barbara H.

    I tend to lean on people too much, too. Glad your dad is ok!

    thank you!

  3. Gina

    I so understand what you are saying about the anger. It is justified, understandable anger, but at the same time, you turn it right back to God. His grace is sufficient for me – and you, too. Thank you for this post.

    You’re welcome. I’m glad you understood what I meant:)

  4. Beth

    Lizzie, I just wanted to encourage you that God created us to lean on each other. He made us to be in relationship and to bear one another’s burden. I feel your reaction is very understandable and appropriate. Good for you for going to God to meet this need and may He provide good friends for you during this tough time!

    Thanks;)

  5. Robin in New Jersey

    Sorry about your dad, but thankful he is OK.

  6. Jenn

    So glad to hear your Dad is ok. I’ll keep them in my prayers. (hugs)

    thank you!

  7. Carol

    I don’t know how I missed this post, but I am so glad to hear that your dad is OK. It is scary when you get one of “those” phone calls. I know exactly the feeling – in fact, I honestly felt that feeling just reading your post. Honest! I get it when our phone rings after 10:00 p.m. because NO ONE calls us that late, and with three young adult/teen son drivers, it always scares me.

    I know the feeling, too, of being upset with my husband for not being there when I need him. My husband has a job that takes him away at the most inopportune times, and I’ve had to go thru some(very emotional)things alone, and it does make one angry. But, the Lord continues to try to teach me that He is ALWAYS there, and HE will see me though, if I will just rest in Him and let Him work. I have failed so often at this, but HE is gracious, and I am so thankful that He NEVER gives up on me. Honestly, I’m coming to see that often it is my pride and selfishness that makes me so angry. I don’t WANT to have to explain one more time WHY my husband is not with me or see the judgmental(for lack of a better word) looks(perceived by me) of others when they see me alone AGAIN! God knows I CAN do it, with His help, and He has used me at times to bless others through these situations WHEN I had a right heart attitude.

    Over time, I have written verses on cards that deal with areas in which I struggle. It helps for me to pull them out and read them when faced with one of “those” times. Memorization doesn’t come as easily anymore, but that is still the ideal thing – to have the Word hidden in my heart, so that the Holy Spirit can bring it to mind whenever I need it and wherever I may be.

    Well, I didn’t mean to write a “book”, but this post struck a nerve with me, I guess, because I’ve been in a similar situation many times.