Tears in Church

by adustyframe ~ November 24th, 2009

The other day, I thought about my friend Gigi and how much I miss her. She used to be my cry through church buddy!

I haven’t been as raw emotionally lately. I don’t mind that. I detest crying in public!

On Sunday, we had a guest soloist and he sang, “He’s Been Faithful to Me”

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*This song is worth listeing to! Hit play while you read.*

Through every pain every tear

There’s a God who’s been faithful to me.

When My Strength Was All Gone
When My Heart Had No Song
Still In Love He’s Proved Faithful To Me

Every Word He’s Promised Is True
What I Thought Was Impossible
I’ve Seen My God Do

He’s Been Faithful
Faithful To Me
Looking Back He’s Love And Mercy I See
Though In My Heart I Have Questioned
And Failed To Believe
He’s Been Faithful, Faithful To Me

When My Heart Looked Away
The Many Times I Could Not Pray
Still My God Was Faithful To Me

The Days Are Spent So Selfishly
Reaching Out For What Pleased Me
Even Then God Was Faithful To Me

Every Time I Come Back To Him
He Is Waiting For Open Arms
And I See Once Again

He’s Been Faithful
Faithful To Me
Looking Back He’s Love And Mercy I See
Though In My Heart I Have Questioned
Even Failed To Believe
Yet He’s Been Faithful, Faithful To Me

When he started singing, I thought, “Oh this is a good song to share on my blog.” As soon as he sang, “What I thought was impossible I’ve seen my God do.”, tears began to roll down my cheeks.

We’re praying for things that seem so impossible and honestly, I feel like there’s no hope. I feel like asking for God to let Lee come home hasn’t changed anything and maybe I should quit asking. Maybe we just have to endure this and keep waiting.

This song was such a good reminder to me that God is the God of the impossible. Perhaps his answer IS to wait, but that doesn’t mean that I should quit praying and trusting.

Recently James celebrated his birthday. On the Sunday before, his photo flashed on the screen with a birthday reminder. Lee saw it and quickly turned to me with eyes so full of pain that my heart broke.

Tears rolled down his face and then I started crying too. (He said he had some dust in his eye–hmmm).

We do a lot of “not thinking about it”.  We have to in order to slog through the days. The times when we do  think of it are painful and cause us to cry in church!

If we didn’t get emotional about this, it wouldn’t be a good thing and yet the emotions are so painful.

Psalm 34:18

The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart;

and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.

**At this time, nothing has changed. No word that anyone is thinking about changing it. The only thing we know for sure is that when Lee’s probation is finished in 2011, he will be able to come home. We’re praying for what seems to be impossible that it will be much sooner.

We’re also praying about hiring a lawyer in the spring and filing for a court hearing. We’re not sure how that will work or even if it’s an option.**

Lizzie

4 Thoughts Shared to Tears in Church

  1. Robin in New Jersey

    Oh Lizzie, I so know that feeling of “no hope.” Sometimes I get really tired of hearing people say, “Just trust the Lord, he knows what’s best.” Our family is going on a year with a situation that seems like it will never end and it seems hopeless. It is leaving me with an underlying sadness that I can not shake. I cry at odd times and even find myself in public places somtimes reminded of someone I miss terribly and I start crying. Your situation has gone on much longer and for that I am truely sorry. I pray for you and your husband and James. I just can’t understand why he would have to be away from his son for such a long time. I was shocked when I read “until 2011.” But that is none of my business and I know you have said before that you won’t share the details. Love to you, Lizzie and Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family.

    Until 2011 is just when his probation is finished. So we know FOR SURE that this will be done by then. It’s not that someone said he can’t come home until 2011. Just that by then he won’t be on probation. Is that clearer?:)

    ((Hugs)) to you.

  2. Susanna

    aching for you xxxx But thankful that our God is the God of the impossible. Hadn’t realised the 2011 bit- that must be veru hard to bear.

    Thank you

  3. MaggieRaye

    Lizzie, I just skimmed through the post, but it made me realize my “impossible” situations are so “nothing” compared to others. (((HUGS)))
    MaggieRaye

    ((hugs)) We each have our own trials, but this one has opened my eyes to a lot. So many things I used to complain about that seem so small now!

  4. (((((HUGS))))) sandi

    That is truly a beautiful song~I might hafta share it on my blog as well! You have been through sooo very much, just wow. (((((HUGS))))) sandi

    Thank you, Sandi:) I’m glad you enjoyed the song.

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