A few years ago, we switched churches to one in another town. Some of the ladies from my town asked if there was a life group in our area.
We decided to start a study for ladies in our town every other week and I offered to lead it. I’ve led Bible studies before and I enjoy doing that. Also, leading helps me make sure to spend the time studying. I don’t want to show up unprepared!
After we set up all the details and I thought about how excited I was to be in a small women’s Bible study, I thought, “Oh NO!”
I really value honesty and transparency and when I’m in a Bible study or small group with people, I feel like some of the things I’d share or say I learned wouldn’t have much weight if people didn’t know my story.
But letting people know my story is always tricky. It’s hard to know how, when, where to share. It’s hard to know who is “safe”. It’s emotionally taxing just to share some of the stories or experiences.
I briefly considered just backing out and pulling the “I’m busy” card……but then I realized it was a God given opportunity and I can’t back out.
It may be an “oh no” more people to tell or it may end up to be another “we love you” experience. I’ve been so thankful for our church and the many many times, I’ve been open and honest and received nothing but kindness and love. I imagine this will be the same but I know it will take me awhile to decide what to say. That’s ok too!