When I say “struggle” I don’t mean all out wrestling or emotional pain…just a now and then thing to pray about and deal with.
For the past several months, I’ve been struggling with the fact that our life is boring.
I see people I know doing all sorts of cool things.
*going on hikes
*taking cool trips (even just small cheap trips, I don’t mean big European vacations)
*having cool parties
*hanging out with groups of friends
*doing something every weekend that looks neat
*buying a new house, car, etc
I wonder why these things seem to cause me to struggle. I’m really not sure. If we were to be doing all those things, I would be exhausted. I’m not the personality that loves being out of the house running places all day every day.
I don’t even want to do some of the things that I see them doing.
One reason we don’t do those things is that my husband is rarely around and when he is, we rest and have “just us” family time. Another reason (house…) is that we’re working on living within our means and paying off things and being content with the things we have.
Recently, a group of friends shared updates in our lives and I must have been in one of these struggling moments because I said, “Nothing much is going on around here. Basically we’re boring.”
Someone said, “Hey for you boring must sound heavenly right?”
Then I realized that yes for us boring is wonderful. Having a calm quiet peaceful life without drama, tragedy, trials, crisis, and emergencies is an amazing wonderful shift in our lives and I am going to ask for the Lord’s help to just embrace it.
Honestly, the struggling is/was plain silly because like I said I would be exhausted to always be going and doing stuff…..I don’t even WANT to do all that.
Amazing how our minds and hearts can get away from trusting God and enjoying the life we live when we put our eyes on others. To be clear, no one that I was watching live exciting lives was boasting or trying to make me feel boring! It was just my own silly self!