Fear

by adustyframe ~ September 8th, 2015

Throughout my life, I’ve dealt with fear. I know this comes from my mom (ultimately from the devil!) because she worried about so many things and we picked up on that “vibe” for lack of a better word.

I remember laying awake all night because I was worried there would be a fire and I wanted to help get my brother out (he was little).

I remember laying awake all night when James was little because I was afraid someone would kidnap him.

When Lee was first gone, I experienced a LOT of fear being alone at night.

Having a new helpless little guy has once again put me in a place where I’m afraid of ridiculous things. I KNOW they are ridiculous and I KNOW it’s wrong. I KNOW fear isn’t of God so it’s obviously from the devil.

I’m thinking about my upcoming surgery, and I’m afraid I’ll die. OK how stupid does that sound?! I KNOW it’s too much….this is not right.

I asked some friends to pray for me to trust more than I worry.

It comes and goes. I’m not paralyzed by fear but sometimes I’ll think about the surgery and think about “What if I die?” and then I think, “I better hurry up and catch up the baby’s scrapbook because Lee will have NO CLUE where all the scraps and funny stories and things are to include.”

This morning, when a fearful thought came to me, I quoted, “God has not given us the spirit of fear…..” and that reminder helped me.

You can pray for me.

Lizzie

5 Thoughts Shared to Fear

  1. Pam

    Prayers….

  2. Barbara H.

    Surgery? Did I miss something? Or more likely I have forgotten – will have to look back through some of your previous posts.

    I have wrestled with fear in various forms for years. I wrote a post about husbands traveling and what I went through with that. I always tend to think the worst when someone is late. The first time any of my kids drove in rain, in ice, or through the night, I was more than a little tense. And yes, I have thought about the possibility of death, even in the recent surgery I had, which was now a particularly dangerous one. I just recently reviewed a book by Ed Welch called Running Scared: Fear, Worry, and the God of Rest (99 cents for the Kindle just now): it’s in a 30-day format, and I read it in the days leading up to my procedure. It helped a lot. There are, of course, multitudes of verses about fear, but a couple of my favorites are:

    What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee. Psalm 56:3

    Behold, God is my salvation; I will trust, and not be afraid: for the LORD JEHOVAH is my strength and my song; he also is become my salvation. Isaiah 12:2

  3. Barbara H.

    I just went back and saw the post about the abdominal hernia – I do remember seeing that but had forgotten. Will pray that God will give you peace and calmness and that everything with the surgery will go well.

  4. Pam

    For me fear is followed by guilt because I know I’m not supposed to fear 🙁

  5. Lisa Beth W.

    (((Hugs))) for you. I can relate to the fear, and for me it really is a matter of realizing that I can control nothing at any time, and that God is in control all the time. Why should I fear a surgery more than driving in a car, which is an ordinary activity but more dangerous than say, a C-section? God is in charge all the time, and He will only allow what is best.

    My daughter has had hernia surgery and came through with flying colors and recovered quickly, just to add a reassuring (maybe?) anecdote.

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