James’ cousin was over again tonight. He went with us to the Y.
I’ve been trying to go at least once a week in the summer to keep up my newer healthy habits. Summer is hard for getting to the Y!
Afterwards, we went to get something to eat. We got out of the car and James […]

James and I went to talk with Pastor today.
This has been wearing on my son and he’s having a hard time without his Daddy.
He asked me why God let his Dad do something wrong. He said to me, “You told me that if we believe in the Lord, he helps us to do right. So […]

As I pray for my husband, I pray that God will make himself evident in his life. I pray that Lee will feel God’s presence and have a desire to learn and grow.
He was reading the Bible and studying quite a bit before, but now he works so much and has school. I know how […]

I’m sure that we will be healing for a long while.
On Sunday something happened that reminded me that everything is still so fresh.
I picked up my son from his Sunday School class. He ran out and grabbed me and ripped some sort of paper object to shreds.
When I found out what happened, I was very […]

Many of you have asked about James and Lee’s reunion. I alluded to some hard things in the past week or so. This is one of the hard things.
We were unprepared to discover that James and Lee are not allowed to see each other right now. That was not what the parole officer told me […]

James and I are leaving tomorrow morning to spend the weekend with my brother and his wife.
She is graduating from college and we decided we simply must be there.
I’m hoping to kick back and relax. Maybe read and knit (doesn’t that sound good?)
“See” you in a few days.

Lee is feeling the pressure of all our unknowns. His parole officer still has not met with him.
She is on vacation until 1 week before his release. ONE WEEK! One week before his release with no questions answered. No plans in place. No knowledge of his rules, his accommodations, his schedule. Nothing.
Talk about “down […]

I have to shake my head at people sometimes. The things people say!
I met a lady at James’ Tae Kwon Do class. While the kids do their thing, some of the moms sit around and chat. I usually knit. That’s always a conversation starter. Everyone wonders what I’m working on.
One lady is actually very nice […]

 
 James does not open up very often about all of this. He’s a very good little boy, but I know he hurts as we all do.
He doesn’t often talk about things. Sometimes I ask him questions and he answers briefly. He doesn’t want to talk about it.
Some of that is being a boy. Some of […]

One of the hardest times of day for me is 4:30.
This afternoon, it is drizzly and gray here. I was tired, so I lay down for a rest. As I drifted off to sleep, I thought, “I need to get dinner started soon. Lee will be home.”
It shocks me how often I have these thoughts. […]