At night, I check on James before I go to bed. I rub his little head and pray for him. I pray that God will fill all the lonely places in his heart. I pray that this won’t ruin him. I pray that he will grow up and be a godly man and have a [...]
Last week, when I went to collect Lee’s clothing and items, his parole officer met me at the facility. She offered to help, but I declined telling her I didn’t expect her to do that. She stood around and watched as James and I picked up Lee’s things and carried them to our car. James [...]
I know that Lee not being able to home doesn’t make sense to you. It doesn’t make sense to us. I have not shared what Lee did because that’s a decision we both made. When I asked Pastor he said to say, “He did something wrong. He’s paying for it. God is changing him.” That [...]
Yesterday, I was looking around my home. I saw clutter, dirty dishes, cat hair, stuff everywhere, laundry piled high. That’s not like me. Me is clean, polished, organized, decorated, non-dusty. A random thought ran through my head, “It’s so much work trying to keep life normal.” It is. I can’t do all the things I [...]
Yesterday, I took James and his cousin to children’s day at a local construction company. They had all sorts of activities for the kids to check out. Of course the big trucks were all around too. One activity was digging for pretty rocks in a huge pile of sand. James and his cousin finally found [...]
James and I went to talk with Pastor today. This has been wearing on my son and he’s having a hard time without his Daddy. He asked me why God let his Dad do something wrong. He said to me, “You told me that if we believe in the Lord, he helps us to do [...]
Throughout this trial, I’ve had a difficult time needing so much help. I know that is pride and I strive to give it to God. It’s still hard to need help. I’d rather be helping! One of the things I’ve needed much help with is care for James. When I was running the store, it [...]
Over the last few weeks, I’ve heard a lot of wonderful reports about my son. All moms know how wonderful it is to hear good things about their babies. The l comments make me so proud of him. They are also humbling because I haven’t really done this alone. Without the Lord, I would be [...]
At James’ swim lessons last week, I saw one of my former employees. Her children are in lessons right after James finishes up. We’ve been chatting each morning. It’s fun to catch up. She asked me how things are going. I told her some of it. We talked about whether or not Lee and I [...]
My brother is pretty awesome too! For mother’s day, my sister called James and had a lengthy phone conversation. They went shopping online together and chose something for me. There was much giggling and whispering and mom pretending not to look. Of course I did have to help get James online so I had a [...]
